Newdrivehome Blog # 59
(Aspen Kleine – Don’t Panic)
I can’t explain how music, or certain songs make me feel a certain way, bring energy in my life, and take me to the warm place in my mind…but I love it. This entire blog was born from hearing the very first verse of this song…”Don’t Panic”. The production is so calming, dreamy, nostalgic, and fitting of a cold winter night. The vocals are just so fitting and I am not sure why this song is not more well known. Take a listen above and read the rest of the blog below to see the words that this song inspired.
The words of this song seem so fitting tonight. I don’t ever recall the winter feeling this crisp and cold; it’s a bittersweet feeling between a love/hate relationship with cabin fever. The winter is vibing differently this year, I cant fully find the proper words to give this sensation an invaluable description…but I’ll attempt to capture what radiates from me while deep in thought and dodging this frigid night.
Growth is a word that seems to appear in my mind; for most of my life the winters days and nights marked the beginning of me and millions of others’ seasonal affective disorder season. Always it felt so overwhelming and hopeless…the past few years I’ve been processing everything in life from a different perspective. I have always been introspective and a deep thinker but it always left me in a rut, overthinking (which I still will ALWAYS have that stat on my player card), and unable to stop dwelling on things I can’t or won’t fully work through.
It seems like an easy answer…just stop doing that. Right? If only it worked in the way it does in the movies. The 5-minute music montages in the third act in movies, when the main protagonist finally comes full circle with a new understanding of their life…doesn’t happen easily. I’m actually grateful it doesn’t happen like it does in coming of age films…because the battles, dark times, and suffering during those evolving points in life are what makes life, for me…beautiful. Although it’s taken years…I’ve learned it’s possible to use the overstimulation and overthinking of life as an advantage for me. Its different for each person and although I’m not exactly where I want to be right now…I’m content enough to be motivated to move further. The cold winter nights are not as hopeless as they were in the past.
That growth and realization alone should be enough, but now that I have a grasp on this new perspective I am building everything that has been on pause and challenging myself to continue building and keeping that vibe and aura I’ve always had; only now it’s augmented. Ive started working out and jogging again too. Also, I decided to live life without the “help” of alcohol anymore, which I will talk about in later blogs. Until then…take care of you and those around you. See you on the next one.
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