Newdrivehome Blog # 54
(Honestav – I’d rather overdose)
If I’m being honest…I truly didn’t think a “TikTok” song could let me cry…but this one did, for hours. The message, lyrics, whatever you’re into…before you read my blog about it, please just listen to this song…for the lyrics and message.
For the first time…in over a decade this song made me comfortable about my life. I hate openly about my faults and addictions. It humbled me to talk about all of this…and it scares me. But, it’s also why I launched the website (newdrivehome.com).
The website is my therapy. I’ve been down before and I’ve been stuck in the never cycle loop of addiction…for a decade, or more. And I’ve seen SO MANY I’ve cared about and loved…end up dead or lost forever. This song reminds me that I’m still here and my heart breaks for everyone we lost in this battle…but accepting is the first step.
It’s a process and I can’t feel guilty anymore…I decided to do better. It’ll always be hard on my heart…but that’s why my therapy (this website) lets me express it….otherwise I’d go insane. Just remember I’m always here to talk. Get a hold of me.
I’m Not perfect…my booze benders remind me of that. But I’ll always listen. Enjoy your night and appreciate every moment in life. I love you!
Newdrivehome 
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